Clannad ~After Story~ – Episode 16


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I’m not going to do a functional post for episode 16. This is impossible. Since trying to get coherent thoughts out of episode 16 becomes impossible for me by the end of the episode. No one should expect a coherent and thoughtful post from me for this episode anyway. At least if you’ve paid any attention to my Clannad posts in the past.

Also, an obvious spoiler warning. Episode posts are always made to be read after watching the episode. But still, an extra warning for the forgetful I suppose.

My thoughts can really just be summed up in one…well it’s not really a word, but you know what I mean.

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TT___TT (I hate you KyoAni…and Key to some extent)

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I want Nagisa back.

Watching Clannad from now on is going to be so difficult. Even more difficult than watching this episode I imagine.

Starting in the second half of the episode, they really didn’t try to make it a secret, at all did they? I can’t think of anyway they could have possibly made it any sadder. Then once it started it just didn’t stop. I want to go cry for twenty minutes or so just thinking about it. It would have been incredibly sad no matter what, since it’s Nagisa but…I guess in a sad sort of way you can say that anything less sad wouldn’t be right either.

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Having Tomoya say that if it ended like that it would have been better if they never met was so, so sad (I think I know at least one person who will call him an idiot for saying that). I know I absolutely don’t want him to say that. I would get angry, but I’m too sad.

That scene on the hill was also sad, but…hmm…well people who know what I’m talking about might know what I’m thinking. Otherwise I’m keeping to myself.

KyoAni and their adaptations of Key VNs are really capable of the most lethally emotional and sad episodes. For me personally, it might be the saddest thing I’ve ever watched (especially in anime) but I’m sure everyone  can understand why I would say that.

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I really don’t think that it’s possible for them to made this any sadder than they did (and safe to say I cried more for this episode more than any other).

Nagisa is one of my favorite characters…and now…(it’s really not something I can actually write without thinking it doesn’t look right)

I really don’t know what’s worse. Knowing that it’s coming and having that awful sort of anxiety and in some cases a sad sort of anticipation (people like to cry). Or not knowing what’s coming, seeing all the signs, still having some hope, and then having that hope extinguished at the end.

Well, I guess if you don’t know what’s coming you could enjoy the first half of the episode. I didn’t.

That all I can really say about the episode. There may be a lot to say and I had a lot of thoughts, but I don’t want other people to have those thoughts. My own mind is my worse enemy in times like this.

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I’m glad that Ushio is a healthy baby girl, but…

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…I want Nagisa back. (T_T It’s like they specifically made the best moments all for a montage. I hate you KyoAni!)

I’m going to spend the rest of my night listening to Nagisa’s theme song now. Likely crying more when the need arises.


30 Comments, Comment or Ping

  1. *sends you lots of comforting hugs* T___T

    There, there.

    At least we can begin to console our pain with the fact that we know there’s going to be a good ending (this is not a spoiler…cuz my definition of “good” varies).

    & I don’t need to guess who that person who’s going to call Tomoya an idiot is. *folds arms and glares*

    But overall…everything was extremely well-done in regards to how KyoAni delivered this episode. And I’ll just leave it at that.

    I still didn’t cry but the ep certainly moved me a great deal. And I’m wondering if I should watch it again or just wait for the sub (yes, I like to cry, too, even though I’m weirdly incapable of doing so for some reason).

    *sigh* Yea…Nagisa… ;__________;

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    January 29th, 2009

  2. ;__________; Nagisa…Died? What? Huh? Why ;________________; *finds summaries*

    Christine Daae’s last post…Yes! PreCure episode 48 END

    January 29th, 2009

  3. 7

    Do not be dismayed….at least not when death takes place in the middle of the season. We have until what..24 episodes right?

    Read between the lines. :)

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    January 30th, 2009

  4. Ricey

    WHAT THE F***, YOU CANT DO THAT TO NAGISA!! She is my fav char too.. i cried like the episode where fuko disappeared. T.T

    January 30th, 2009

  5. This episode made me cry T_T

    January 30th, 2009

  6. I honestly wish all those “flashback scenes” were more elaborated on. I would have much rather seen that scene of Nagisa sleeping with Tomoya in the same freaking futon than the stupid baseball episode. :/

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    January 30th, 2009

  7. MyVampireEyes

    OMG…

    Though I’ve only seen a few eps of Clannad, I just had to watch this one.. since I read your posts on this, when I found out Nagisa was pregnant, I got worried.. knowing how physically ill/weak she is, I was so scared she wouldn’t live and the baby would… and it happened. *Cries* The monatge only made me sob all the harder.. poor Nagisa.. poor Tomoya, too… I just want to hug both of them… Tomoya only hhas Ushio to take care of now… and the little thing will never know her mother.. ;.; *Goes off and cries in a corner*

    January 30th, 2009

  8. Julia

    I just watched the episode 2 minutes ago and I had tears in my eyes, but they just didn’t get out. I tried really hard. That’s the most annoying thing, you want to cry, but you can’t!
    It was so sad.. I was still hoping they would ignore the original ending and just let her live, but they did not, of course..
    I also think it is so sad for Tomoya.. I can’t even describe it in words.
    Maybe the baby will make the pain less, but when I would be a boy and have a girlfriend, and I knew before hand that she was going to die because of a baby, I’d choose for the girlfriend and not the baby. Maybe that’s wrong, but I just can’t stand this!
    I think the thing about Tomoya is that he feels guilty… And I guess he would rather see himself be unhappy because he didn’t met Nagisa, instead of seeing her die. Maybe it looks kinda selfish, but I can only think it’s really sad.
    I never wrote a reply to your stories, but I already read them for a long time and I like to read them. I’ll give you a big cyber hug, though I’m a stranger. I hope you’ll feel a bit better later on.

    p.s. I also found it stupid they used all those great scenes for the montage! I would really have loved those scenes.. I would really have loved to see that intimacy between Tomoya and Nagisa, because I have the feeling we didn’t see a lot of that, apart from holding hands.

    January 30th, 2009

  9. jairo

    Why….WHY?
    God dammit, why?!

    January 30th, 2009

  10. Druuu

    I don’t really know how to feel or what to say after watching it. It really breaks my heart about her, she was my favorite character I mean *IS* my favorite character, until I see a funeral or a grave or shrine or whatever I will deny the fact that she is dead. My friend liked Tomoyo more the Nagisa and is all laughing and it’s sooo sad. Sorry that is all I really have to say.

    January 30th, 2009

  11. foreveroblivion

    I knew it…I knew this was coming. And it felt so painfull to watch the episode and think that this sweet and happy person won’t have such sweet and happy pregnancy. Sad to see a person happy in one moment, heck, many episodes till this one, and then see her lifeless body. Those best moments were like daggers to my heart. I cried like crazy… Hope to see how they’ll manage to make an ending as emotional as this episode. Definitely the best episode/anime in emotional aspect that I have ever seen so far.

    January 30th, 2009

  12. *pats on the back*

    At least we’re probably going to get the ‘good’ ending. Still very sad though. (cried too)

    The montage was evil. It only made people feeler sadder (but I guess that was the point).

    Also, playing the ending theme for this episode was evil. It’s way too cheerful.

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    January 30th, 2009

  13. Kotoko

    In the second part of the episode, we all saw the dead of Nagisa, but…think with me… Tomoya appears in a black background, and then the follow images seamed a bit to brigth for me.
    Maybe this is just Tomoyas imagination…
    Don’t you think??
    Well, it’s what i expect…

    January 30th, 2009

  14. *Sobs* NO! NO!…I just…don’t even know what to say…

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    January 30th, 2009

  15. I prefer Nagisa over Ushio, ultimately.
    @Kotoka: Possibly, if it is I’ll be WAY too happy~!

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    January 30th, 2009

  16. fireuser

    this is the point where everyone knew they were gonna cry if they knew the storyline, yet they can’t stand to not watch it happen. All in all, I think that KyoAni delivered the episode extremely well. Sad as it was……*tears well up* I kinda liked the montague of the scenes although it just made the whole episode about 3x more sad. This part of the story is a bit too early and I’m kind of wondering what they are going to fit in the last episodes and the kind of ending that will happen.

    January 30th, 2009

  17. Chu

    Damn! This Is Freaking Sad! I Didn’t Expect This To Be This Early! Because It Just Happened So Fast! Never Knew That Theme Song Dango Daikazoku Could Be A Sad Song, Thought It Was Just Cute, But Then! Not Anymore! Huhu! *Crying In My Chair* T.T

    January 30th, 2009

  18. NO! Nagisa can’t die! It’s just too painful to watch/read/hear! How can the story go on without her?! It really is too sad to watch anymore…TT^TT
    I really don’t have much to say but WHY?

    January 30th, 2009

  19. FlameStrike

    Nagisa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Just wait ’till you see what comes next, fck Key is EVIL.
    Anyway, play the game, obtain TRUE END, have a happy family of three! T.T

    January 31st, 2009

  20. MinaMurray

    *headdesk*
    Keeping on using death through child birth is evil. How often does it happen now and how mean is this kind of death for everyone?
    Well, I search the illogical point in this explanation. Nagisa show have brought to the hospital as early as possible if there is any danger because of the delivery. And even if the early date was a suprise, I would have carried with my arms to hospital rather than let her give birth at home without any medical help of doctors!
    It is so evil…I feel so bad for Tomoya since he suspected the danger from the beginning and yet it happened. And Nagisa kept on being to happy all the time…I was only able to cry in the end…TT_TT…goes along with the current TRC chapter.

    Greets, Mina

    January 31st, 2009

  21. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
    OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
    OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

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    January 31st, 2009

  22. stephen

    im speechless i cant beleive it. nagisa di….. i cant even say the word now. it was very sorrowfulT_T.

    January 31st, 2009

  23. Sigh.

    Here comes 8 episodes of Tomoya angsting.

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    January 31st, 2009

  24. Kiseki

    Ahahaha… Why is it that I always read Wikipedia before everything? 8D;

    Lol @ saimaisma.

    At least we know there’s a good ending. (And we get to see that girl in the dream world. <3)

    February 2nd, 2009

  25. I just got done watching this with my sister and I feel so emotionally drained. I’d feel even worse but luckily we watched episode 4 of Zoku Natsume Yuujinchou after Clannad and it made me feel better – it also dealt with a baby but it was a happy episode.

    I knew this episode was coming and still I found myself crying for pretty much the entire thing. KyoAni really are the masters of shows like this. Even the preview made me sad because those shots of the apartment really showed that Nagisa is no longer around and Tomoya’s letting the place go to ruins.

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    February 2nd, 2009

  26. Darkness Shana

    I felt very upset when I downloaded this episode of Clannad-AS-, as I have read some comments before I watched it.

    Maybe this one is the saddest screen for me to review for several times these days…… Though I hold the flag of Tomoyo and Kyou, it’s sorrowful to watch the second half of episode 16…… Nagisa died, no longer exist in the next 8 episodes, what a doomday!

    As I have played part of the Clannad game, accomplished 4 characters, I do advise you to download it and play, though it’s already an older game and its pictures looks mundane compared with the current Gal-Games.

    And I’m very curious about your screenshots. I cannot see any single English word on the pictures. How do you watch this without subtitles and finally understand it?

    Last, I appreciate this series of drama especially the latest ones, let’s wait and see what will go on in the 17th episode.

    By a visitor from China.

    February 4th, 2009

  27. MinaMurray

    Just watched episode 18 – again *schniff*
    Wonderful. I had to cry several times again Q_Q
    I really like Ushio’s voice. Still childish, but rather husky, not the usual high voice of little girls. It’s so cute.

    Greets, Mina

    February 13th, 2009

  28. Itena

    Oh my God, when I watched this I had the same reaction as you did. It was actually at this episode that I realized that Nagisa-chan really was my favourite character in the story, and I understood very well how Nagisa is the center of the Clannad Universe. When Nagisa died, I felt that all that the series had worked for broke into a million pieces and shards on the floor.

    I cried and I cried and I cried, cried, cried, cried! And I went to bed and thinking about it made me cry some more! I haven’t cried so much and so bitterly since Saikano. And then, the next few episodes, just like you, I cried everytime Nagisa was brought up and everytime her picture was there. It was just… wow, it was very painful even though it was only fiction. :cry:

    April 3rd, 2009

  29. mitsuki1o1

    nagisa :cry: y did they make her die why!! oh and i’ve been following your blog since that post on tsubasa shunaraiki ( i think thats how u speel it :roll: ) but i’ve been to embarassed to comment :(

    June 26th, 2009